Sunday, February 5, 2012

curls and swirls

So my hair is officially trying to be curly. Here's the problem. Only half my hair fell out, meaning that the half that didn't fall out is still the way it was. So now when I wake up in the morning, my hair is flipping nuts! Its everywhere! Up, down, sideways. Hopefully it will figure itself out sometime. I'm trying to get it to grow out, so we'll see how it goes. I think it will be in that awkward phase for a while, but luckily I look good in a hat. 

I've decided I'm going to get a journal to write in. I just read a book called "Bed Rest" that I picked up in a thrift store. Its written diary style, and I liked the way it read. I'm not planning on turning it into a book, but I liked that she wrote down everything she did and can really remember it all. I also think it might put some perspective on the day to day that we are living right now. I still feel like we are kind of in a time warp, and I haven't figured out how to get out of it. I think writing what happens each day as it goes might be a way to really see the days, and hopefully they won't keep just disappearing into thin air. I think I'll find a nice handmade leather bound one that has nice blank pages. Then I can scribble and draw if I want too. I'm on a mission - I'll try and find one in the next couple days. 

In other news, I'm a master fire builder. I will share more later, but I am totally proud of myself right now for this. Just figured I'd gloat a bit. 


  1. Hello!
    It's great that you're sharing all your moments and feelings in this blog. I personally wouldn't be happy living with such a dangerous desease... And my hair? Oh gosh..I'd cry everyday. But I love how fearless you sound :) Please, don't forget I admire you.
    xoxo, Sara

  2. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!!

  3. I'm with you on the journaling. I have been writing for years and it saves me! It's freeing and helps bring clarity and perspective. I hope you find this to be true for you as well. Enjoy!

  4. Yet another thing you're good at. Rising above and fire-building. Excellent skills!! Glad you're writing a bit Kezia.

  5. Yes, it is a great idea to write down to express what you are feeling and thinking. It does help.

  6. Your hair sounds like mine -- half straight, half curly-ish...I put it up a lot. You'll figure it out. And yes, if that picture of you holding Saoirse is any indication, you look adorable in a hat. : )

  7. I hadn't read your blog in a while and was catching up on google reader today. This post struck me since I also only lost pieces of hair during chemo. My oncologist told me not to worry, since my hair was curly and a large majority of people grow in curly hair. He was very wrong - my new sections of hair grew in straight as sticks.
    I have an amazing hairstylist and she is very patient and can acutally fix my hair. You would be surprised how many hair product companies are recognizing the need for hair-help after chemotherapy.
    I wish you the best of luck.