Wednesday, September 2, 2015

First day of school...

Life has gotten quite busy. Traveling, working, raising a 2 year old, summer, weddings and general life. But sometimes life sneaks up on you when you least expect it. 

Today, most of the kids in the area started school. That means, All of Saoirse's friends started kindergarten. While this is heartbreaking in so many ways to me, I find myself wondering more about what it would have been like to have her here. 

What would she look like?
Would she be going to school with her friends or would we have home schooled her?
Would she have needed to have hearing aids to hear the teacher?
Would she make friends?
Would she have picked out a Frozen backpack?

There are so many questions. Questions that will never have answers. Questions that will never need answers. 

I hope that just maybe, some of the friends that knew her as a baby will remember her as they all make new friends at school. 


  1. Kezia,,

    You and your family have been in my thoughts and in my prayers for several years. You are a blessing to many.


  2. I have been following your blog for several years, a year ago I was also diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma and finished six months of chemotherapy, I am grateful to be in remission now, I have continued to check back to see how you are doing, as I still live with the worry of a relapse. I hope that you are well and send you prayers and thoughts as you navigate through life without your precious daughter. Thank you for sharing your story.

  3. Your Saoirse was just a little younger than my girl. I remember when I first read about what was going on, via a link from a local friend, and my heart just breaking so much for you and Mike and your beautiful baby girl. I think of her often, I really do. And you. I cannot begin to imagine ... our girl started Kindergarten this September, as you say, and I count my blessings every day. Knowing about you and about Saoirse put a much different perspective on motherhood for me. It helped me to remember to not "sweat the little things" because, well, you just never know.

  4. How are you fairing with your your treatment? Think about yall and wonder about you all daily!

  5. Hope that you are doing well. We are all thinking about you.