Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

So far, Mother's day has not won any major awards in my book as a mum. My first "mother's" day, I was eight and a half months pregnant, my back hurt, my ankles were swollen, and I hadn't slept well in about two weeks. Needless to say, I was looking forward to the next one. 
Last year, my first real mother's day, I was locked in a hospital room. I had just found out my little baby girl, the one who made me a mom, had cancer. While I was thankful I knew what was wrong with her, and that she was feeling better after just one day of treatment, it was not what I had envisioned for my first mother's day. 
Which brings us to today. The year when I should have had a good day, a real mother's day. Instead I am left looking at photos of my daughter, and snuggling with her stuffed animals. She didn't get to make me a card with her daddy, and go with him to pick something out for me. She didn't get to let me sleep in and bring me breakfast in bed. Instead I was robbed of my baby. The only one who I got to love and take care of longer than anyone else. The only one who called me mamma. 
Cancer stole my mother's day. Cancer SUCKS!

8 comments:

  1. Hugs to you, you are in my thoughts today.

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  2. I don't blame you, I just want to slap cancer in the face or kick it in the.....you get it. My brothers wife endures another mothers day without her son, stolen from cystic fibrosis and there are many more mothers I feel pain with, even as a father, because cancer does suck. Blessing to you and yours

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  3. You have been on my mind all day. Thank you for sharing.

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  4. That does really suck and I hate Cancer too. I hope you got to smile here and there. Hugs XOXO

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  5. Sending my love your way!!! Praying for you!!!

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  6. Cancer does suck!!! Best wishes and love to you and Mike!!!

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  7. I am very sorry that Mother's Day did not turn out good for you in past and this year. Always keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

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  8. Happy Mothers Day to you Kezia, you should celebrate being Saoirse's Mommy everyday of your life, you have done more as a Mother than most Mom's will do in a lifetime. Saoirse's Mommy Forever!!
    Darlene Sanner, Alexa's Mom

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