Thursday, April 26, 2012


So, as I was laying in bed the other night, trying to fall asleep, I thought I would sing my self a little lullaby. Well, I didn't want to sing any of the ones I sang to Saoirse (after all, I was trying to fall asleep, not make my mind go crazy), and I couldn't think of any others. So I decided to recite a poem instead. I remembered one from when I was little - "Now I lay me down to sleep..." and decided that was a good one to go with. Now, we're not really religious at all, in fact I was raised Unitarian Universalist, but I think all little ones know this and recite it at some point, so I remembered it pretty well. Once I ran it through my head a couple times, I started adding verses. They were pretty good, so I figured I'd write them down. So I'll share my little poem here, and you can all use it to fall asleep tonight. It worked for me.

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the lord my soul to keep 
And if I die before I wake
I pray the lord my soul to take

But if I should awake the morn
I pray my soul to be reborn 
For I have known such sorrow deep
I know not how my soul will keep 

And must I rise again next day
My heart just wants to slip away
I can not go for is my fate
To stay behind and contemplate

I wake again and thank the sun
For I have the first battle won
And now my journey I must meet
To make my heart and soul complete 

I'll keep you close as I draw near
While pushing through the fateful fear
Thinking of that tragic day
When quietly you slipped away

I may be here without you now
Forced to face the why and how
But when I feel we are apart
I know that you still have my heart. 


  1. Soooo beautiful. Thank you for sharing. I love to hear you express your feelings and this is such a poignant way of doing that. I luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv you! Xoxoxo

  2. Beautiful and heartbreaking all at the same time, Kezia
    Your family is still in my thoughts and prayers.

  3. this is so beautiful !

  4. You did such a beautiful job writing that - it brought me to tears.

  5. Thanks for entering the giveaway. I'm not even sure what to type. I've read through some of your posts, and am heartbroken for all you've had to go through and your loss. That poem is beautiful and I'm sure somehow Saoirse heard it. I know you said you're not religious, but I'm going to keep you and your family in my prayers. I know God can use all of this darkness and turn it into light. ((hug))

  6. Beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Thank you.

  7. Simply beautiful expression Kezia. Glad you shared it. Love to you.

  8. Beautiful! Brought tears to my eyes!! <3

  9. Well now I am in my office weeping.... that was just beautiful. Simply Beautiful. Thank you for including me on this journey of yours. You have taught me many things. Things I would not have taught myself... Your journey thus far has had some very sad moments but you inspire me. All the way to Vancouver, Canada you have inspired me. Please dont ever stop sharing your heart songs.... they have the potential to change society.


  10. Moved me to tears. Better than the original. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. You have managed this with such grace. Keep blogging.

  11. Absolutely Beautiful!

  12. Beautiful! Thank you for sharing, Kezia.

  13. I stumbled across your blog this morning. God bless you my friend. I always remind myself that life is such a precious gift and can be taken in an instant. Prayers from one mom to another. Peace

  14. Beautiful. Thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss and send love through the ethers.

  15. thank you for sharing your beautiful words, esp with us who have lost our dear children. love and hugs.

  16. Just beautiful. How special that you can express yourself so clearly and deeply, touching us all. Such a gift, Kezia.

    My mother lost my Dad to brain cancer this past November & tomorrow is their wedding anniversary. I think your poem will really touch her & soothe her with her grief. Thank you.

  17. Beautiful and heart touching. Thank you for sharing.