Thursday, December 13, 2012

One Year

I can't believe it's been one whole year since I've held Saoirse. There are so many times I feel like it was just yesterday, and times when I wonder if she was just a dream. I miss her every single day, and I always wish she was here with us. She would have made life so much happier. So much better. So much friendlier. So much laughier. I just don't know why she was taken. She was so good and kind and perfect. She could have done so much with her life. Helped so many people. Made so many friends. I wish I could go back and fix everything. I just wish she could come home.

We decorated her tree today. Put lights and a garland up for her. I think she'll like it. 


  1. I can't believe a year has gone by. My prayers and thoughts to you guys for a gentle holiday. Much peace to you!

  2. She is playing happily somewhere. I wish that somewhere was your arms.

  3. While she was here she DID make everything happier and "laughier" and better and then she taught us how to continue it...she's in our lives every single day. She pops up in mine every day at least!! xoxoxo

  4. i've been thinking of you all quite a lot. knowing that a year was coming up. i'm still so sorry she's not here with you both and with your families. creating new memories. it simply makes no sense. it's beyond unfair. peace to you and yours. i think of you all often, for what it is worth.

  5. nice article
    thanks for sharing

  6. I am amazed by your strength and eloquence. I wish so much that she was there with you. I don't know you , but you have made me more aware of so many things.

  7. Prayers and warm thoughts are going out to you. I'm still in awe of you, as you turn your pain into educating, supporting and finding a cure for others. I cant help but think that your angel is looking at you, encouraging the good work you are doing. G-d bless you and your family as you grieve for the perfect little girl you had in your lives for a little while and you that you also celebrate how much she had an amazing she impact on your life. Hugs - Sherry Gordon-Shulik

  8. Reading this brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry.

    I don't know why your daughter is taken so early, but at least I know that she touched many people's lives, like mine, a total stranger from Armenia.

    Many people here read her story and I am sure they will become better people starting to truly appreciate life's real value.

    I don't know if anything I say will make it a little easier for you as a parent, but one thing is for sure, she changed our lives, touched us with that beautiful picture and now will live in us. I hope where she is, is also our road: near Jesus.

    I just said a prayer for you and may the love of Jesus Christ, the Song of God make it little easier and comforting for you.

    God bless you. Your precious child lives in us and helps us to be better people every day.


  9. I wish she could come home to you too Kezia. And my heart hurts for you....Hang in there, it's all we can do. You are an Amazing Mommy and She is proud, and hasn't really gone anywhere, with you forever...Xoxo
    Darlene Sanner